Answers

by higman

I found it in the most unusual way
Wasn’t just another day
But I had enough years to pray

It was in the most unlikely place
Where I had known no grace
Now it leaves no trace

Answers to the questions I had never known
Reasons why my mind felt so alone
Ripped like pagesfrom the most sacred book
I took one last look
And walked away with the answer to my unknown
But left without a love of my own

I see things now just as they are
Livings never very far
No wishing on a star

I still walk this land with a smile
yet with every mile
It’s kinda lost its style

Answers to the questions I had never known
Reasons why my mind felt so alone
Ripped like pagesfrom the most sacred book
I took one last look
And walked away with the answer to my unknown
But left without a love of my own

Be careful what you wish for
Think it all through
Be dareful with what is hurtful
But it may come back to bite you
Clean your mind from the times that truly do haunt you
and run like your free from the chains that want you
cause they do want you


A message from above

by higman

I gave you all a chance now you may want to listen to what I have to say. I gave you a world with more than you could possibly imagine. I gave you time to grow and learn and to understand each other and the world around you. I gave you an expanse of cosmos that would challenge and mesmerize you. And I gave you free will.
I’ve watched for some time how the dynamics work and as you come into your own free societal thinking you’re learning but not at the fast enough rate that I had hoped for. Remember, I love you. You trust in people as leaders to guide you then never keep them in check as ultimately they fall caring about themselves first due to greed and power. When on those occasions you do collectively rise up against injustice you do it uncivilized, creating a chaotic war within your own lands. The very space you call home. You create confrontations and false accusations against your own kind simply because they look different or they think different. They are from a different culture. You insult your own intelligence by being ignorant to a simple fact. Just because you live on one side of the world, you must recognize that other people living on the other side of the world and are very different. Yet most of all, your human. YOU ALL ARE HUMAN. Able to overcome many obstacles however you choose not to learn how to master and guide freewill to your own benefit. Which brings me to Faith. Simply because someone has hopes locked up in their own personal inspirations that are different than yours you cannot find them at fault. You yourself do not have all the answers of your own surroundings let alone the unseen universe of another humans mind. Whether you choose to believe in me or not is not the question. The fact that you would belittle a person for seeking hope in such a fashion, in a world that’s so desperately needs it, and your reaction proofed them right. It says more about your own character then the mindset of the faithful. Most of all, I find it appalling I left the choice of freewill and you live completely blind to the possibilities and the challenges when looking out beyond the planet. Even to be introspective would force you to realize, not only the planet, but your very existence is on a very fragile course. Just like hate, love only exists if you choose it. It’s not a faith, it’s a decision. You don’t hope to get along and work together, you choose to. Those that don’t need to be taught what it means to live with other humans. Collectively, once again, you will get there to an understanding that you’re all human. Created all the same but with different characteristics. None of you are like other creatures around you but all who are human are the same. I would think that you would have figured that out and live by that creed alone already. For if you did, the world truly would be a better place. I gave you all a chance for millenniums now I would like to say one last thing. Do you believe in yourselves? Do you believe in your yourselves? Then learn to work together. Learn to help one another. Learn to sacrifice your own wants for other people’s needs. Learn to use your best qualities as a human being. Because in the end all you have is each other.
Don’t make me come down there.


Somethings Not Quite Right

by higman

I dont want to live and I dont want to die
God knows that I’ve tried and tried
to understand the reasons
to live through all seasons
and pass along what little wit
to get others through the night

Still somethings not quite right
Still somethings not quite right

Otherwise I’d be blessed
I put my faith in all the above
cause down here it’s a mess
I write these words to this song
to sing above what’s all wrong
I won’t go down without a fight

Still somethings not quite right
Still somethings not quite right

Wearing my heart on the outside is all I used to know
It was my way of showing that there’s still love enough to share and grow
A broken heart needs no jewlery it only clutters the soul
Maybe that’s what the worlds really made of
Lord help me in my fight hopes not as cold as snow

Still somethings not quite right


Stones
by higman

With the rest of my time
Im gonna try and push my smile on thru
Smilin thru the pain
While life seems to make due
Learning to live again
like most, sorting stones
eventhough its all just because
in the end
there is no gain or no loss

The thought there is a reason for everything
seems to escape me now
The faithless recover while the faithful wear their frowns
Knowing then what I know now
May have saved the day
But it wouldn’t have mattered anyway
I must have been a stone myself , for others to throw away
I must have been a stone myself, for others to throw away.


empty promise

by higman

how far does an angel go to deliver a msg
how high is high enough climbing a mountain
when does love at first sight become so serious
how did a sea become an ocean

how loud is loud enough when a baby cries
what amount of money can a rich person do without
how bright must it be to be a sunny day
what time must pass before the silent promise becomes empty

theres a bridge near where I live that brings people together
or is it coming or going
I just don’t know
but it sure does show
a person decides at a point in their lives to question if its worth it
this thing we call life
conquering what chains had bothered them for a lifetime only to discover there was no freedom in being untethered, no understanding in the calm silence
answering questions sometimes leaves us with no challanges.
unless you come to that point in peace, what now? but is that really worth answering.


Some other setting sun
by higman

out of sight
out of mind
create a distance
to minimize
damage control
things of the heart
cast away
broken heart

how many legs to stand on
where there’s such uneven ground
send away misunderstanding
where it can make no sound

we want nothing to do with the likes of you and your thoughts
so incomplete
go where happiness meets
go where happiness
meets
some other setting sun
just not our one


Musta Missed Something

by higman

I lived a life just breathing in the shadows
in a house of adultery content
my mind knew the difference between right and wrong
still no angels were heaven sent

musta missed something

maybe it was the day in the loft I fell on my face
I still can hear the sound and ring
or the day abuse put shame where there was grace
when a friend of friend sucked the life from me

I thought I knew what love was
til a bottle took control
then when love really happened
my past already stole my soul

musta missed something

death has a way of bringing life to the living in a way we can’t deny
but seeing it through the eyes of a child

you can never shut your eyes
you’ll never shut your eyes
but I musta missed something along the way

there are days I ask
would things be any different
I’d take the advice that you just live and die
if I could ignore the fine print if only I could just ignore the fine print

still I musta missed something

I lived a life just breathing in the shadows
in a house of adultery content
my mind knew the difference between right and wrong
still no angels were heaven sent

i musta missed something
musta missed something


Just Because
by higman

Just because there are clouds in the sky, there’s still a sun above it all.
Just because there is a smile on a face, there still could still be sadness.
Just because the outside has a weathered look, the inside can still be a home.
Just because we hope for the best, a world of difficulties surround us.

Just because theres a time and a place that did us wrong
We can still be strong
look beyond
and embrace all that was good and true
Because deep in you
you know it’s the right thing to do

Just because

Just because somethings playing on the radio
You can turn it off
Just because it’s raining, you can still go outside
Just because something has made you say enough is enough
Forgiveness is the art of calling out then letting things slide

Just because


Get Over It

by higman

Compassion’s just a word but in your eyes of the faithful what is the law of God, others see as debatable. kindness of the heart only goes so far love, its just like gas running out of a car


We’re just people praying on people is it ever going to stop
Or are we too stupid to get off this rock

It’s the sober reality the coldness of space you’ll get over it it’s just the human race

I tried to be there for everyone and never for myself now I know that feeling of being put up on the shelf
It is a rare quality when people give a listen to even rarer still that second chances will come to you

Get over it
you’re on your own
your lights been on but it’s not your home
get over it
It’s not your time understanding only goes so far with humankind
Get over it

It’s the sober reality the coldness of space you’ll get over it it’s just the human race

It’s just the human race


Through the storms of of a lifetime

by higman


Knowing now of my desires. Where the sun rises and sets in my life. It can’t be said that I haven’t tried to do what I needed to do
I dug down deep. More lower than most. I know I’ll be better for having done in the long run. But I did it for me and you
We learn only so much morein our lifetimes that were never taught by our parents or in class
The colors of emotionsl ike the colors of the rainbow Show only until the sun and the rain pass
Then it’s up to us to walk with grace below under the wide open skies with the love we may know Should we ever feel the touch of a hand may that grace remind us what it takes for us to stand
Through the storms of a lifetime


Where Does Time Go
by higman

Marooned on a deserted mind
Sun sinking low
You wonder where the stars are out tonight
Cause you may never find

The reason
for the quiet moments
The season
is so heavy loaded
In a blink of an eye
our lives change like that
but it takes time for us to know just where does the time go

Ageless
are long forgotten trends
Nameless
are ancestors and friends

The quintessential part of every living soul
is holding onto loved ones
eventhough they’ve let go

The reason
for the quiet moments
The season
is so heavy loaded
In a blink of an eye
our lives change like that
but it takes time for us to know just where does the time go


PTSD
by higman

Images and offerings
encapsule us
Embrace our minds
to a time and place
where lovers erased
the future

Exceptions don’t exist
in a land of bliss
Til fate comes in and takes the blindness away
Thats where hope saves the day.

The time so long ago now only shows in the memories if those about ready to go
But we’re all critics in different theaters
understanding what hate is

Exceptions don’t exist
in a land of bliss
Til fate comes in and takes the blindness away
Thats where hope saves the day.


Never Again

by higman

Never again
Never again

When I see you walk away
So many words I still wanna say
I just want to spin and hold you once more
Look into the only eyes I adore

And say never again never again

There’s still no place I ever go
Or anywhere that doesn’t show
The world that I always miss
And no love I’ll ever know like this

Never again
Never again

Never again
Do I want to know
Another love like we had
Cause another face won’t replace
Our good times or bad. I’ll go on the rest of my life
Knowing what was real love
And I’ll deny the rest of my life
Theres no more joy life’s made of

Never again
Never again

I just want you back again. I know you know it was true that the world we had with its beginnings was strong enough to last other people matter to a point but at night it was just us two if in the end we can’t mend never again will have to do

Never again never again


Love is here to stay
by higman

( intro)Watching the sands of time sift by
Grains slowly take their place
Each one destined for its moment in time
As fate leaves its trace

Moments are set up for glory
Some are set up to fail
We can decide all that we want
While the spirits war prevails

(Ch) Good and evil Right or wrong. The silence of a night. A snow falling song There's a truth to the season. That needs to be all year long. Love is here to stay

~
(vs)
Understanding the weather
Cause it’s here to stay
As grown ups smile and struggle
As children learn to play

There’s a time and place for everything
And not everyone gets their way
Rich and poor hunger differently. Love is here to stay

I looked into an elder's eyes and saw the child they once were. Though time had shaped each year gone by. one gift had endured it's that present wrapped up inside us all. We carry each and every day. It's up to us to open. and keep it on display

(Ch)
Good and evil
Right or wrong
The silence of a night
A snow falling song
There’s a truth to the season
That needs to be all year long

Love is here to stay

Don’t let life’s pain hide the light inside you
Love is here to stay


Purge Away the Pain

by higman

I just can’t purge away the pain /though love wraps around me holding me from harm /
it squeezes me tight trying to make everything all right /
there’s still one drop that always finds a way /
poisoning the positive I know that’s in me /
but I just can’t purge away the pain. ~~~
Reversing the perversion that life has left behind
it’s so very hard to do alone /
I wouldn’t dare want to pull you in /just please understand me as I hold my own /
I’m just trying to get through as best as I can / and there’s no more comfort in holding my own hand /
I was already tired of seeing through my own eyes / you were the light I had every day / now I just can’t purge away the pain. ~~~ maybe it’s because you’re much more stronger than me or as I tried to hold us up I broke in two /I recognize now what I didn’t before now. but you say it’s too late to prove it to you /
I just can’t purge away the pain ~~~ though love wraps around me holding me from harm /
it squeezes me tight trying to make everything all right /
there’s still one drop that always finds a way /
trying to poison the positive I know that’s in me
and I just can’t purge away the pain.


How
by higman

How do eyes never see what they see even when they see without reading between any lines

how do minds know what they know when all they think is that no’s come from a blurred state of mind

Visable people leading invisable lives
Curable people living in incurable ways
Changing rules
and never hearts
Til the end of our days
Til the end of our days

It must be so easy to take the beaten path, following each other, believing in the same math.
While the road less travelled shows the strength
How much further would we have come if we didn’t know life’s sorrows to their length

Visable people leading invisable lives
Curable people living in incurable ways
Changing rules
and never hearts
Til the end of our days
Til the end of our days


Changes happen all the time

by higman

Gray sky /gray rain /seems even the weather feels the pain
cold winter /same as the fall /
a blended season come to call //
everything’s alone in the world /underneath the moving sky
like the lonely of blues / under all questions why

not a chill running through my bones seem to ever touch my skin /it just came from someplace deep within /
a broken heart like the puddles I see
here and there /
I never asked where they come from they’re just always there//

Welcome to your new year / welcome to your new day /
Don’t get used to it /cause next year wont be the same /
in 5 or 10 you’ll be in a different frame of mind /
But don’t get used to it then /
Nothing stays the same /
Changes happen all the time /Changes happen all the time /nothing stays the same /Changes happen all the time


Who am I to live? Who am I to die? Who am I to change the mind of my heart and soul after what my eyes clearly can’t deny?

I have heard the cries of children that had no voice to be heard.
Struggled with those arguements of the righteous who hang on their every word.
I snuck out food for childhood friends too hungry and poor with no pride to steer. The same children that caused loved ones and soclety expressions of caution and fear.
I watched as saints turned with gnashing teeth on the simply humble already swept off their feet.

How quick we forget that the blood in our veins carries a family, a heritage, our own historical name. No royalty, president, or leader politically will ever be more important than my loved ones to me. The wedge of their rhetoric was meant to kindle a patriotic flame never was it meant to cause division and blame.
I’ll learn, as we all do, under the celestial body of space, while breathing in physical quantum of my generations human race.

Who am I to live and die
trying to understand a world in disarray? I’m just another living soul willing to question the ages, as I bow in spirit and pray.