Post Covid

Nerah נֵרָה

To be more observing became a norm/ Watching those in and out of storms/ With the gales of reality blowing a world as it spins/ questioning truth has become our greatest sin. higman

Stream in the desert devo Sept. 7 reads…

God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble” (Ps. 46:1).

The question often comes, “Why didn’t He help me sooner?” It is not His order. He must first adjust you to the trouble and cause you to learn your lesson from it. His promise is, “I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him and honor him.” He must be with you in the trouble first all day and all night. Then He will take you out of it. This will not come till you have stopped being restless and fretful about it and become calm and quiet. Then He will say, “It is enough.”

God uses trouble to teach His children precious lessons. They are intended to educate us. When their good work is done, a glorious recompense will come to us through them. There is a sweet joy and a real value in them. He does not regard them as difficulties but as opportunities


I disappear like a ghost in plain site/ like a different parrallel I stumbled into long ago one night/
It’s easier knowing now my smile help when it’s there for all to see/ Yet when I’m not around, no one comes looking for me. I’ve never understood it. Never gotten used to it. Its just the way it’s always been. The time spent in solitude I learned to be my best friend/ I suppose it’s just a natural phenom of living life to some degree/ Or perhaps it’s just another degree of difficulty, to living as me.


No need to write anymore/
no need for favorite things/ occasionally I’ll express myself/ because inside my heart it still rings/ like bells with songs that always express my heart / but the sound is all thats left since we’ve been apart

A lonely church sits by a meadow/
Under the shadow / of a treeline that once thrived/ then silence fell and so with it the joy/ a love once alive/

My place is clear/ My compass is true/ I’ve no need for understanding with my heart anything new/ I’ll live on and let life live/ knowing that except for you, I have no more love to give

I’m a lonely church sitting by a meadow/
Under the shadow / of a treeline that once thrived/ then silence fell and so with it the joy/ a love once alive/


Bring me down with spontaneity/ a humbling worth time/ amidst the season ending/ holding warmth for what I’ve seen/ been blessed to have witnessed/ looking forward to much more/but seeing is not believing/ time gives that away/ to those with a patience/ and removed from having a claim in the game/ my struggle is not not being able to play/ but knowing my place of peace despite societal gains


You don’t bounce
You roll. Drop and roll. Learning when to stand up is the tricky part. To be beaten down to the point of no return is just a choice. At some point you give in thats whats going to happen despite your best efforts. So you learn to stay down and keep rolling. Knowing you will stand again gives one all the hope needed to keep rolling on. It’s not worth the heartache anymore to stand up and be used in love. That’s exactly what puts you in a blind mess unable to move forward. Perhaps faith has forseken me becomes a valid thought. Until you recognize faith is what holds us together. Effort to be unconditional. Is what’s missing. True love is learning to be unconditional. Just like rolling along in life is a must despite all odds. It is the one quality that builds strength. Without it is never tried by fire.


Ill keep rolling/ roll on like lifes taught me too/ desperado with nothing to lose/cause ive already gained/ what I need to survive.
Ill keep on rolling/despite where the sun don’t shine/ light and shadows can be so unkind/ they can’t take away the love in my mind/ its whats kept me alive/
All these years rolling
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You don’t bounce/
You roll/ Drop and roll/ Learning when to stand up is the tricky part/ To be beaten down to the point of no return is just a choice/ At some point you give in/ thats whats going to happen despite your best efforts/ So you learn to stay down/ keep rolling/
Knowing you will stand again/ gives one all the hope needed to keep rolling on/
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Ill keep rolling/ roll on like lifes taught me too/ desperado with nothing to lose/cause ive already gained/ what I need to survive.
Ill keep on rolling/despite where the sun don’t shine/ light and shadows can be so unkind/ they can’t take away the love in my mind/ its whats kept me alive/
All these years rolling

It’s not worth the heartache anymore to stand up and be used in love/ so I’ll just roll along with the grace from above/

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Ill keep rolling/ roll on like lifes taught me too/ desperado with nothing to lose/cause ive already gained/ what I need to survive.
Ill keep on rolling/despite where the sun don’t shine/ light and shadows can be so unkind/ they can’t take away the love in my mind/ its whats kept me alive/
All these years rolling


And out of it there came a mist that vapor barriers could not stand down. While pride and arrogance battled for independence, it crept in with sovereign domain. Blessed people know of compassion not contempt. Christ knew conern for the people not the affliction. While the proud and the learned battle amongst themselves on worldly ways they become too blind to see they are the sheep for slaughter. Weighing in for the world instead of faith.


Out of site out of mind
Left for strangers to find
Reduced to all that they know
To help them in a world not willing to show

Theres a way
only they choose
based on the size of their shoes
Its all they’ve ever learned to walk in
Stepping a smile or in the blues.

But the beat goes on
Relentless against their song.
The beat goes on
Drumming all their wrong
The beat goes on
As the day is long
The beat goes on
While Jesus walks strong
The beat goes on
The beat goes on


An observation as I reflect/ the good and evil I detect/ doesn’t build character as suspect/ but blesses a calling to those select

Times of odd still perplex my days. Like the time I stepped between a family and a blade. Or when I spent a week in the dark of night, preventing a grieving mothers demonic suicidal fight

We call out in anguish, we call out in pain, we call out in joyful song praising his name. Perhaps those moments where light shines deep within our heads, is the purpose of life until we are dead. Until then we orchestrate all that we can, within the cosmos of his omnipresent hands.


With nothing more to say/ I turned my head away/ I’ve heard the cries and the sighs/ in the darkness and light of day/ calling in a whisper is as loud as a scream/ but there is no longer a dream/ words didn’t help much anyway/ so I turned my head away

Steps


Steps
Heel to toe leaps of faith
Sounding like breaths
Taking all that we make

Going one more
That much further
Beyond what we knew
Just a little longer
Down aways to what we never knew
But willing to
Taking steps

To a new creation
others forget
Neat situations
Inch by inch we get closer
Heart beats
get a little stronger
Out of fear or desire
Its too late to care or dare
We’ve taken
steps

Without even knowing
Without even growing
without even leaving
Without even believing
Without planning your next move
Time has done it for you
Steps


What good does it do/Waiting in a world against against you/ Alone with eyes wide open/ Sheltering a heart true/

What good is it to you/ waiting in a world against us/ lonely and feeling apart/ knowing the choice is up to you
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Deep down you know whats real/
Deep down you know how you feel/

Beauty only goes so far/ and the time around us keeps going on/
Looking ahead can only see in the distance/
Notice whats nearby before its gone/ I’ve havent left and I never will again/my biggest step brought me back to you/ Here Ill stay until deep cries unto deep/
Now it’s all up to you/ Now it’s all up to you.

Deep down you know whats real/
Deep down you know how you feel/ I’ve come as far as my time allows/ without you, theres nothing left to heal/

Beauty only goes so far/ and the time around us keeps going on/
Looking ahead can only see in the distance/
Notice whats nearby before its gone/ I’ve havent left and I never will again/my biggest step brought me back to you/ Here Ill stay until deep cries unto deep/
Now it’s all up to you/ Now it’s all up to you.


A man yelling at the top of his lungs because he got a wrong burger with his fries
The music never lies
Shame never dies

Some lady, well call her Karen, goes off in public like a siren
Spoiled rotten tirade
A child with no bottle’s more silent

The world owes us nothing
Since history’s began
We didn’t start the beginning
We may never see it end
The world owes us nothing
We only give in return
The more we take selfishly
The more our future may burn

The more our future may burn


Love &Miss
by higman

While I layed here tonight
Wonderin what went wrong
and all that matters in this world

Ill dream of you tonight once again like before
and before once again I’ll have no words

Cause it’s not worth saying when my voice is the only one in the room,
So I’ll say it in a prayer, the quiet breathe of air, in hopes an angel takes it to you.

Love & miss
More than you know
More than all the times before
More than there are stars in the sky
Love & miss
With every breathe I take
With every chance I break
the clouds of every day to shine the love of my life

It’s the only light thats keeps me going in the seasons I see
As times can often be
Just like this,
Love & miss

No more the fool that sees things for granted
Yet open my eyes have always been.

To a world where I was planted
Where I always feel alone but hope what could be

So I’ll say it in a prayer, the quiet breathe of air, in hopes an angel takes it to you.

Love & miss
More than you know
More than all the times before
More than there are stars in the sky
Love & miss
With every breathe I take
With every chance I break
the clouds of every day to shine the love of my life

It’s the only light thats keeps me going in the seasons I see
As times can often be
Just like this,
Love & miss