The Writings

I believed in love

by higman

I believed in love

How it could change the mind

How it can slow down time

How it made all things fine

Then I found love just tests and more

Slams all your doors

Drills you to the core

I believed in love once when I thought I could see

Thought I actually had a chance only I was decieved

I believed in love, then with nowhere to turn

My match of understanding had just burned

Cause I believed in love

I believed in love

Just when you think that life maybe fair

a different place lets you know

I want to believe that Love makes us better

But Ive only seen how lonely hearts grow

Love never stays to show

Love never stays to show

I believed in love

then with nowhere to turn

my match of understanding had just burned

Cause I believed in love

I believed in love


Answers
by higman

I found it in the most unusual way
Wasn’t just another day
But I had enough years to pray

It was in the most unlikely place
Where I had known no grace
Now it leaves no trace

Answers to the questions I had never known
Reasons why my mind felt so alone
Ripped like pagesfrom the most sacred book
I took one last look
And walked away with the answer to my unknown
But left without a love of my own

I see things now just as they are
Livings never very far
No wishing on a star

I still walk this land with a smile
yet with every mile
It’s kinda lost its style

Be careful what you wish for
Think it all through
Be dareful with what is hurtful
But it may come back to bite you
Clean your mind from the times that truly do haunt you
and run like your free from the chains that want you
cause they do want you

Answers to the questions I had never known
Reasons why my mind felt so alone
Ripped like pagesfrom the most sacred book
I took one last look
And walked away with the answer to my unknown
But left without a love of my own

Love & Miss
by higman

Had me a bottle of Onyx with a splash of a sunset
It sure was a sight for sore eyes
Thought I could relax myself for a bit
At least I thought I’d give it a try
Whether it was the taste of the wine or the salmon berry clouds
It was just another place to be
Where the reflection off the waves made it clear again
I was still missing Dee

Met a friend I had known for years
It was a celestial kinda thing
For so long we shared our tears
and the joys that life could bring
But honesty got the best of me when it really cared
I had to close with what will always be
I was still missing Dee

Perhaps a breath will come someday
like a peppermint patty
and send me racing in a cool direction away from the mountain that I know
who really knows
how deep the valley goes
But I refuse to ever drop that low

Til then I wander the party that life has to give
not joining in the
toast
Just looking for a conversation with the one who understands the most
Feeling like a ghost among the living as I turn its plain to see
My apparition is my affection
cause I still miss Dee
My apparition appears before me
cause I will always love & miss Dee


i dont want to
by higman

i dont want to
im to fried
no more one step ahead
ive tried

i dont want to
it dont
work
if was raining soup id run out with a fork

i dont want to
too bad
what used to be ours we never really had

i dont want to
its not right
in the end it always just causes a fight

i dont want to
ever again
when i think its true love i have to think again

i dont want to
ever believe
when its never really me they need

i dont want to
ever go
i just want one home to call home sweet home

i dont want to
be this way
but the one i love the most sent me away

i dont want to
ever want again
its left me empty time and time again

i dont want to
time and time again
i dont want to
time and time again


Do you know

by higman

no challange
is a challange
when there’s no where to turn
nothing to burn
when there were no bridges to begin with

a desert is just a space
where all of human race
believes they have an oasis
but they know no traces
of those who’v never known a home

all we ever want is understanding from the one we love
to want as deep
as vows will take
knowing that it takes two to make one
do you know
do you know


Spared the shame

by higman

I put the pain all on me
to spare you the shame
Knowing that I’m losing it myself
losing my name
I crossed lines where I never should have been
Even by thinking I could make you happy
When I could never make it
I wasn’t cut out for this life
As time and time again has shown
I really tried my best to provide a healthy stable home
But in the end
as failure never leaves
It bled your faith in me no matter how I rolled up my sleeves

Damn if I do, damned if I don’t it’s been almost three years since I have slept in a bed I can call my own but my one quality is I’ll never give up trying, I can’t, I won’t


Adrift
by higman

A wind keeps pushing
Down a street randomly
An errie quiet surrounding me

Adrift
Adrift

Over bumps and rolls
Across lanes and tolls
Destiny left to the cold

Adrift
Adrift

~~

Destination unknown
With a sail around me
Keeping me covered from
the elements
Perseverance
is all I carry to survive
Left adrift
to stay alive

~~

Lost in a sea of man
Last of the breaths I can
Cast whatever is at hand

Adrift
Adrift

Familiar are the waves around
Friends are the splashing sound
Seen but can’t be found

Adrift
Adrift


The Beautiful Dawn

The Beautiful Dawn /Rises without a sun/ it takes a hold of your soul/ letting you know you’re amazing just the way you are/ I just wanted you to know
//
Beautiful dawn/ no matter how many days/ you may never hear it say/ then comes that one time you hear it calling out your name//

I’ve never heard that till today/ I’ve never allowed myself to pray/ in the inner Sanctum inside my soul/ til the Beautiful dawn unlocked the door/ don’t ask me how it happened/ that I’ve walked free/ it’s like passing by a mirror/ I began to see me

On a rainy day in December/ it became crystal clear/ I know the clouds will come back/ they seem always near/ but I’ve got a raincoat wrapped around my heart/ and my front door is open/ as I stepped out on my lawn/ and wept while standing there/ in the Beautiful dawn

The beautiful dawn/ rises without a sun/ it takes a hold of your soul/ letting you know you’re amazing/ just the way you are/ I just want you to know

Beautiful dawn
//no matter how many days you may never hear it say /then comes that one time you hear it calling out your name.

It’s an amazing day/in your amazing way/you’ll walk through just fine/you have that lil bit of time/ and don’t worry about the rest/ it never showed you the way/ it’s your new day/ in your beautiful dawn


Until We’re There

by higman


Think, Feel & Dream /Line up your life with your thoughts /
Things arn’t what they seem /The future can’t  be bought

Trace what you know to be real on a page opened up wide /See if it lines up with the truth on the other side /
Know this and hear it well /Your story may be your very own /but what actually drives you here and there /is never really known /
Until we’re there


In a place you never thought you’d be /Oh yes, you reached for what you thought you wanted /only wound up again to see /There’s a place always greener on the other side /the longer that we choose to stare //
Until we’re there
Until we’re there //


Now find yourself in a world where you can settle down /Letting life revolve around you /Don’t get too comfy in your station /Your just there to learn a little patience /Then you begin to wonder once again /whether life really cares /You’ll never know /until we’re there //
Until we’re there /


In a place you never thought you’d be /Oh yes, you reached for what you thought you wanted /only wound up again to see /There’s a place always greener on the other side /the longer that we choose to stare /
Until we’re there /


On a page opened up wide /
Line up with the other side /Until were there /Trace what you know to be real /
The future is always sealed /Until were there /Your story may be your own /what actually drives you is never really known /Until were there /It’s only greener on the other side /The longer we chose to stare /Until we’re there /Until we’re there